TRUE RADIANCE

FROM AN OVERWHELMED HEART!!!

2011-12-28T19:33:00.001+08:00

I want to write, but the words aint flowing....my heart is overwhelmed...I need someone to talk to.....someone, anyone who could give sound advice on certain matters on ground.

A lot has been happening lately in this small world of mine....This month has been way too overwhelming! Lord!!

CHOICES! DECISIONS!! ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS!!! Hmmmmm......God help me!!! :(

I miss those times when I could have a good chat with a godly friend, and get answers or would I say insights to certain troubling matters!!!

Oh Lord, You've searched me. You know my way!!!

OVER A YEAR AGO! :)

2011-12-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

Over a year ago, I wrote my previous blog. A LOT has happened in this past year. Now I'm wondering, should I put it all up here at once?

I feel so excited blogging again. However, I have to be careful not to let the excitement take me to the point where I write without thinking. :p I'll get back here with updates on what has happened so far - My Christian walk, Career, Family and of course my 'Love life'. (I know y'all will be excited to hear about that). :p

The summary of it all is GOD HAS BEEN FAITHFUL.

Till you see my next blog....
Peace! <3

~SELFISHNESS - THE SILENT DESTROYER OR RELATIONSHIPS!!!

2010-07-13T14:12:00.006+08:00

I'm beginning to lose count of the number of marriages going on around me. News of "young ladies" getting married...and young men alike. Change of status, names and even lifestyle been effected as soon as the deal is signed...:-) And the singles now desperately searching for their "heartthrob". Beautiful isn't it?

But then, I look again at the world around me and the rate of divorces and broken relationships seem to be screaming at me like the sound of the ancient Church bells. Then I ask myself, why? Why do people who seem to be so "in love" end up breaking up? Why does it seem like the vows made at the altar are never kept? Alas, there's just one word screaming loud- SELFISHNESS!!!

SELFISHNESS! Yes, that's the word!!

So many people these days go into a relationship for the wrong reasons. If you're in a relationship...or seeking for one, I'll like you to ask yourself this question - Why am I in this? Why do I need this?? What are my motives? If you're going into, or are already in a relationship for the sake of fulfilling your needs, them I must tell you this - You're so wrong! Retrace you priorities, cause you're heading for a failure.

Recently, I came across this beautiful write-up by Tim LaHaye which dealt briefly on Selfishness. I must say, it gave me a wonderful perspective about different kinds of people and somehow I got to realize the answer to my question - Why do relationships/marriages fail? The success of any relationship/marriage is not as dependent on the amount of money the two people involved have, where they live, how good-looking they are or how much education they have as it is on how selfish the two in the relationship are.

According to LaHaye, nothing is more destructive to a marriage (or relationship) than selfishness..."I insist on having it my own way!", "I want the last word!"...those are the words (or silent thoughts) of a selfish person. Selfish people are rigid and intolerant to other people's desires and insensitive to others' needs or feelings. It is almost humanly impossible to love a compulsively selfish person.

Anybody considering marriage should carefully examine how his/her prospective partner treats others, especially family members. The way a person treats others is a very clear indication of how he/she will treat you or your family members when you have been joined in marital harmony.

Some people select a life partner for all the wrong reasons and introduce their selfish agenda into the new union, destroying interpersonal skills and soon erasing all feelings of love. Readiness for marriage is not directly dependent on age or physical maturity, it is dependent on maturity of the mind and spirit . "One is not old enough for matrimony until he or she is unselfish enough to think more of someone else's needs and desires than his or her own" - Tim LaHaye.

Mature individuals rarely divorce and usually enjoy a happy marriage, regardless of contrasting temperaments or other differences that may exist between them. Conflicts in taste or attitude do not destroy marital harmony, but expressions of selfishness often do.

Partnerships of all kinds can suffer from selfishness, Two people can start a business as equal partners and selfishness creeps in, turning best friends into worst enemies. They may claim their conflicts on "personality differences" or "philosophical differences", but the bottom-line problem is selfishness.

The degree to which individuals overcome selfishness determines the success and happiness of all their interpersonal relationships.

Selfishness is the silent destroyer of relationships. Let's learn to question our motives. Ask yourself "What can I give into this relationship" rather than "What can I get from this relationship"! :-)

"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others" - Philippians 2:3-4 (NIV).

~WHO COMPARES TO YOU?

2010-06-19T22:51:00.004+08:00

Break me Lord, till there's no more of me for the world to see...

Fill me Lord, that its all of You the world will see....

Direct my eyes to see things through Your eyes...

My mind to be set on things that are above, rather than on things that are here on earth....

For that which is on earth is temporal, while that which is above is eternal (2nd Cor 4:18).

I broke down while leading worship in service today. Not because the worship was so good, but because for a moment, I was totally awed by the sovereignty of God, and how much He has put in us to declare life into our lives.

Shared a bit about what God did for mum last week. I really don't want to remember how weak her voice sounded when she told me she was in pains; talking about her bleeding (as a result of suspected tumor/fibroid?), her not been able to go to the Hospital for check-up coz she couldn't sit at a place for long, etc. I remember how confused I felt last week Thursday while I spoke to her on the phone, and how the weakness of her voice kept ringing in my ears for the rest of the day.

It's amazing how all we need to do is declare a thing in the Name of Jesus according to God's will, and it will be done. I remember how all I could do was type a few words: "Mum, I trust God to ease your pains and heal you completely. I love you so much mum, you mean a lot to me. Praying for you!", and how depressed I felt for the rest of the day....But the God I serve, He answers prayers. The bleeding stopped the next day, the pains were gone, and she could even travel (driving on her own). Glory be to God!!

How wouldn't I be moved at how amazing my God is? How couldn't I be awed at how Magnificent He is. Couldn't hold back the tears when I shared a bit of this story while I led worship today. Indeed my God is awesome.

I've not been the best I should be for Him. I've not exactly done the right things, but He still answers my prayers.

Lord, who compares to You?

~JEHOVAH PERFECTO!

2010-06-18T03:29:00.007+08:00

"I was young and now I am old, yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging bread." (Ps 37:25).

Words are not enough to tell of His goodness....

Even the tears I shed don't express the JOY in me accurately.....

Indeed I can say He has been SO GOOD to me....

Indeed I can say His Will is Perfect....

Lord, I thank You for this wonderful gift....

You've brought JOY to my Heart...

You've put a SONG on my Lips...

You are JEHOVAH PERFECTO!

The one who Perfects all that concerns me...

Some Trust in Chariots, and some in horses....but I TRUST IN THE NAME OF THE LORD my God! (Psalm 20:7)

Woohooo!!! I'm officially A GRADUATE of The University of Nottingham!!!

PRAISE THE LORD!!!

~GETTING BACK MY REAL SELF!!!

2010-06-09T22:45:00.009+08:00

It's amazing what life in Uni can do to a person. Can't believe I lost touch of my "reading" habit. Despite how hard it was for me to accept this, I got to realize recently that I was beginning to lose the interest that I once had in reading inspirational books, and aptly working towards personal development.

So, I decided that the period after final exams would be the best time to catch up on what I have lost so far. Made some interesting plans:

1. Get books to read.
2. Make sure I read them: At least one book in a week.
3. Make a journal on every inspiring word/message/information I come across.
4. Put what I have learnt - the positives - into practice.

The journey to fulfilling these plans began today. Had a date with Sis. Chai Hong of Kajang Assembly of God to get some books at the Christian Bookshops in Petaling Jaya. I must say it was a lovely trip.

1st stop - Luther Center

Never been to this place before...however, was told that there was a book sale going on there, so that would be a good stop. I later got to realize that the book sale was organized by a Christian Bookshop called Glad Sounds Sdn Bhd. The sales spot was in a room on the 3rd floor of the building, and would be going on until 20th June.

Was so excited once I got into the place. Lots of books to choose from, and at affordable prices too....Discounts for some items went as low as 70%. Couldn't just imagine. Well, I originally had two books in mind before I left home - Tim Lahaye's "Why you act the way you do", and Spirit-controlled temperament. However, when I stepped into the place, I began to pick others books which didn't yet include any of these two mentioned.

T'was quite exciting picking books, and seeing how much discount I'd get on them. Summary is, I ended up with 15 good books from 4 different genres (Prayer, Leadership/Business/Entrepreneurship, Relationships/Marriage, and Christian Living).

Next stop... Evangel Book Center. I browsed through their book stands. Saw some interesting books I'd have loved to pick up, but they were quite pricey and had no discounts on them. They had some wonderful biographies I really would like to have...especially the one by Elizabeth Elliot, two books by Francine Rivers - Scarlet thread and A Voice in the Wind...but they still were very pricey.

Last stop...Salvation Bookshop. From my point of view, they didn't have much to offer. Only saw one book I loved...still pricey...Considering the fact that I had spent so much already in Luther Center for the 15 books I got...Well, I concluded that I'd better be content with what I had picked up so far...got to finish reading those ones first.

So, here begins my holiday....Lots to read, lots of new stuffs to learn...I'm excited. Today was indeed a wonderful day!!!

I owe my sincere thanks to Sis. Chai Hong.

~THE PERFECT GIFT!

2010-06-08T09:52:00.002+08:00

Like a workman that earns His wages at the end of every job performed,

She waits to earn that which belongs to her.

She's been led to the gift shop,

to pick out that which best suits her.

There are a variety to choose from,

In different forms - shapes, colors, sizes - they come.

She sees a gift She so admires, one she doesn't seem to be able to take her eyes off from...

But, Is that the best for her?

Coz she's expected to choose that which is best for her.

Then He says "If that's what you want, you can have it! ....the desires of your heart I'll let you have!"

And she turns, staring Him right in the face,

Oh, that look! It seemed more out of permissiveness than out of satisfaction....

Then loudly she said "Oh that! I'll pass",

Let's move on!!

Let's keep searching!!!

~The Character Traits of a "Good Friend"! :-)

2010-06-06T18:29:00.013+08:00

Do you have friends? Who are your friends??

How does one really get to know if a person should be classified as a friend? Who is a good friend? Who is a bad friend? These are questions that would often flood the mind of an individual who is out for the best in any friendship or relationship.

If you are familiar with any of the set of questions outlined above, I'm sure you'd agree with me that choosing and keeping the right friends can sometimes be a very tedious job to do.

Anywayz, here's some useful tips I got to figure out. It could help you know who exactly to call a Good Friend, or which kind of friendship or relationship you should keep away from. Yeah, it's a kinda long one, but please read to the end....trust me, you will not regret the fact that you did! I really learned a lot from it!! :-)

The Character Traits of a Good Friend (Culled From TSPOON93@aol.com)

Some may not realize that the traits of a good friend relate to the character of one’s mate, but a little reflection shows why this must be so. The breaking of the marriage covenant is a sin against a companion, a close and intimate friend.

That leaves the companion of her youth, And forgets the covenant of her God (Prov 2:17).

The term rendered “companion” here is used elsewhere (Prov 16:28; 17:9; Ps.55:13) for the closest of friends. If my mate is not a friend, what is she? And yet some have foolishly chosen to marry one who fails to qualify even as a friend.

Here's a brief summary of the qualities of a good friend, drawn mostly from the book of Proverbs:

1. A GOOD FRIEND IS FAITHFUL.

Fair weather friends are numerous, and Proverbs mentions these (Prov 14:20; 19:4,6,7). But a true friend is a person who is still there even when the going gets tough.

A friend loves at all times, And a brother is born for adversity (Prov 17:17).

A man of many friends comes to ruin, But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother (Prov 18:24).

Do not forsake your own friend or your father’s friend, And do not go to your brother’s house in the day of your calamity; Better is a neighbor who is near than a brother far away (Prov 27:10).

2. A GOOD FRIEND REBUKES US WHEN NECESSARY.

There are things which may need to be said to a friend that are not easy to say. I am disappointed by the sentimentalism that pervades our friendships so that we flatter our friends when we need to frankly rebuke them. A true friend is the one who is honest enough to tell us what we need to hear, rather than to flatter us.

A man who flatters his neighbor Is spreading a net for his steps (Prov 29:5).

Better is open rebuke Than love that is concealed. Faithful are the wounds of a friend, But deceitful are the kisses of an enemy (Prov 27:5-6).

Why is it, then, that we seem to think that a wife should never criticize her husband? Is it not better to be corrected by our closest friend than by an enemy? Sometimes the kindest thing a wife can do for her husband is to tell him that his idea is absolutely ridiculous--in a gracious way, of course.

3. A GOOD FRIEND IS THOUGHTFUL AND TACTFUL.

A good friend is sensitive to our needs and speaks in such a way that we are encouraged and enriched. His sensitivity is demonstrated in his understanding that gaiety and goodwill is not always appropriate nor appreciated. “It matters not only ‘what’ we say, but ‘how,’ ‘when’ and ‘why’ we say it.”

Like one who takes off a garment on a cold day, or like vinegar on soda, Is he who sings songs to a troubled heart (Prov 25:20).

He who blesses his friend with a loud voice early in the morning, It will be reckoned a curse to him (Prov 27:14).

4. A GOOD FRIEND SHARPENS US.

Not only do we need to be criticized when necessary, but sometimes we need to be probed or stretched in our thinking. A good friend does not allow us to become intellectually stagnant, but prods us on to higher and greater thoughts.

Iron sharpens iron, So one man sharpens another (Prov 27:17).

A plan in the heart of a man is like deep water, But a man of understanding draws it out (Prov 20:5).

Isn’t this true to life? Don’t you seek to develop friendships with those who will challenge your thinking and present you with new avenues of thought? Why should one of these friends not be your mate?

5. A GOOD FRIEND OFFERS US WISE COUNSEL.

Those whom we choose as friends should be marked by wisdom and thus have godly counsel to offer.

Oil and perfume make the heart glad, So a man’s counsel is sweet to his friend (Prov 27:9).

Think back for a moment to the account of David, Nabal, and Abigail in 1 Samuel 25. David was angered because of the ungracious words of Nabal to his young men. He was determined to wipe out every male in the house of Nabal (1 Sam 25:13,34). Abigail quickly formulated a plan to appease David’s anger and then spoke words of wise counsel, pointing out how detrimental David’s actions would be to his future rule as king (1 Sam 25:28-31). David’s reply indicates his appreciation of the wisdom of her words:

Then David said to Abigail, “Blessed be the Lord God of Israel, who sent you this day to meet me, and blessed be your discernment, and blessed be you, who have kept me this day from bloodshed, and from avenging myself by my own hand” (1 Sam. 25:32-33).

I would simply point out that David was indeed wise to marry a woman who could offer such wise counsel. And we would do well to marry one who offers wise counsel as well. Why is it, then, that husbands seem to think that the biblical instruction concerning the submission of the wife to her husband precludes her offering him wise counsel, if offered tactfully and in a submissive spirit? Let us learn from David and Abigail.

And that's all from me for now!!!
xoxo.

~BEHIND EVERY SELFISH MAN, THERE IS AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN!!!

2010-05-21T22:38:00.004+08:00

He's got a job, she's got a job;
His paid job ends at about 16:00hours, hers at 17:00hours,
but she has to be home before him...to make sure he feels welcomed when he gets back.

At the end of the month, they both get paid....
They have a joint account (thanks to him),
but He's not willing to let them make the budgets together...
"It's my job as the head of the family" he says.

She does all the house chores - cooks meals, does the dishes, bathes the kids.
Junior's diaper needs to be changed, and at the same time, she's trying to prepare dinner...
She calls out to him while cooking "Honey, could you please help me keep an eye on the food while I go change Junior's diaper?"
His response: "That's your job dear, I'm sorry this football match is a 'MUST WATCH' and I don't wanna miss out on any of this".

He loves to hang out with childhood friends,
but when it's time for them to be out together:
"We have already exceeded the budget for the month dear!", we can't afford that anymore.

Just wondering, how long will this last before she begins to feel like she has made the most dreadful, insensible decision in life? How long before she begins to think of existing on her own, having her own account, and maybe eventually leaving the home to settle on her own? How long???

Most men don't realize it until it goes way beyond control....
Funny thing is: symptoms of these traits can be seen while the young man is growing up (say in his teens/adulthood), and even in the early phases of a relationship (dating).
There's more to a relationship than people can see.

BEYOND EVERY SELFISH MAN, THERE IS AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN!!!

~THANK YOU LORD!!!

2010-05-11T22:00:00.003+08:00

"I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them." Isaiah 42:16.

Sweet Lord, I thank You for this day....for going before me, making every crooked path straight,

For granting me favour in Your sight, and in the sight of man.

You've been faithful Lord,

And FAITHFUL You have promised to remain.

My heart is filled with Joy Unspeakable!!!

Thank You Lord!!!

~10TH MAY!!!

2010-05-10T21:37:00.004+08:00

How could I have forgotten a day as this? 10th of May....a very significant day. The day a husband, a father, a hero, a philanthropist.... a rare gem, was born.

Daddy, I still wish you were here with us....What a memorable day today would have been. All the same, I thank God for helping us get through it....The vacuum your demise created cannot be filled.

Though you've been gone for years now, memories of you are still fresh on my heart! Seems like yesterday I last saw you...I promise to make you proud daddy!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! I'll ALWAYS Love You!!!

~THE BEGINNING OF THE END!

2010-05-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

And so, today begins the end of my life as an Undergraduate. Final exams started today. It wasn't that bad, but wasn't as productive as I wanted coz I didn't have enough time to revise since I just handed in my thesis on Friday, plus I was kinda disturbed by flu (I still am though). Well, not to say that I feel disappointed though! God has it all in control....I know I'm STRONG!!!

Been thinking so much about what life would be like for me after now....can't still get a clear picture of it. Still trusting God. I know He has all things planned out! He makes all things beautiful in His time.

Just on the side, there's this interesting quote I got from a friend....I've decided to post it up here to remind all the ladies (and maybe guys) who'll stumble over this post, of what it takes to find the right person for you. It might not be a perfect quote, but it served as a reminder to me...some kinda caution and checks!

So here you go:

"Wait for the guy…
...who pursues you,
...who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person
...who makes you smile like no other and when he smiles, you know he NEEDS you.
...who wants to show you off to the world when you're wearing sweats and no make-up.

Wait for the guy...

...who'll put you at the centre of his universe...

...cos obviously, he's at the centre of yours"

Cool one huh? Datz what it takes to find real love people! Have you found yours?

xoxo.

~Partial fulfillment??

2010-05-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

Partial Fulfillment huh? Well, it didn't seem like one....
I bless the Lord!

Just a reminder that the other "partial" aspect is yet to be fulfilled.

So help me God.

~SOMETHING ABOUT LOVE

2010-05-05T17:18:00.001+08:00

Love is not manipulative...

it does not seek its own.

Where manipulation exists, love should be questioned.

Love is the reason Christ died...

Love is what I am called to show.

“Love is friendship that has caught fire. It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses.” - Ann Landers (American Advice Columnist, 1918-2002).

~DIMINISHING LOVE???

2010-05-05T05:56:00.003+08:00

Sometime ago, the sight of you made my heart leap...

the mere thought of you brought a smile to my face...

your every word seemed to linger on my ears...

your face like a picture on the walls of my mind.

But now...I dunno how I feel...

thoughts of you bring this "uneasy" feeling...

hearing your voice makes me want to melt in anguish...

not sure if I can stand looking at your face.

Seems like a case of DIMINISHING LOVE.

~THE READING OF YOUR BIOGRAPHY

2010-05-04T23:07:00.004+08:00

How will you feel if your biography is read in your presence?

How will you feel if a book containing all that you've ever done is opened...

and its contents read before you and many others with you?

Pause....think....will your goood deeds outweigh the bad....

and you be proud to hear/know that??

or will you be left with no choice than to bury your head....

and be saddened with regrets about the way you have lived???

Hmmmm....still thinking on this....really can't say!!!

~WHY I DO WHAT I DO!!!

2010-05-03T11:24:00.000+08:00

I give...
Not because I want to be given back,
but because I see the need to do so.

I lend a helping hand...
Not because I want to be helped in return,
but because someone is in need of it.

I smile...
Not because I am in the mood to smile,
but because that smile might just be a "panacea" to a hurting heart.

I love...
Not because I want to be loved back,
but because it's my FATHER's nature,
The GREATEST GIFT OF ALL.

~MY NAME IS PRIDE!

2010-05-02T12:02:00.004+08:00

My name is Pride. I am a Cheater.

I cheat you of your GOD-GIVEN DESTINY...
because you demand your own way.

I cheat you of CONTENTMENT...
because you "deserve better than this".

I cheat you of KNOWLEDGE ...
because you already know it all.

I cheat you of HEALING...
because you are too full of me to forgive.

I cheat you of HOLINESS...
because you refuse to admit when you're wrong.

I cheat you of VISION...
because you'd rather look in the mirror,
than look out a window.

I cheat you of GENUINE FRIENDSHIP...
because nobody's going to know the real you.

I cheat you of LOVE...
because real romance demands sacrifice.

I cheat you of GREATNESS IN HEAVEN...
because you refuse to wash another's feet on earth.

I cheat you of GOD'S GLORY.
because I convince you to seek your own.

My name is PRIDE. I am a CHEATER.

You like me because you think I'm always looking out for you.
Untrue.
I'm looking to make a fool of you.

God has so much for you, I admit, but don't worry.....
If you stick with me...You'll never know.

God's Wisdom transforms us from the inside out, and then through us, transforms the world!!!

Copyright TSPOON93@aol.com

~ TOSSED ABOUT BY INDIFFERENCE!!!

2010-05-01T15:39:00.006+08:00

Oh yeah, it's been a really long while since I wrote something....I'm sitting right here in my room, trying to study, but it's quite unfortunate that I don't seem to feel the vibes for study right now. I'm reading about Motivation. It's one wonderful topic in a module I took up from The University of Nottingham School of Management....a year 1 module though! :-) Funny, I'm studying about motivation, yet I don't feel motivated to study....lol...Well, that's about my present mood!!!

So what about Indifference? What's this thing about Indifference I want to talk about? I was talking to a friend last time, who told me that I seem to act indifferent to certain things even when it's obvious that they bother me so much....Well, I really don't know how the chap came about such opinion about me, but one thing I know is that most times, when I try to make certain things work, and they seem not to be turning in the right direction, I tend to start ignoring them, acting like they never existed.

Call that escapism? Well, not exactly.....It's just like having a bump on your head, and trying to pretend that it isn't there....ignoring the pains when it comes up....like telling yourself "yes, I feel the pains, but I aint gonna respond"...lol....:P

Well, I know that by now, someone might be thinking "Okay, what on earth is she talking about?". What has all this talk got to do with the title of this post? Now, what I've been wondering is this: Does trying to ignore certain problems mean that you should see something wrong in yourself and refuse to change it? I get so pissed whenever I hear people say "That's me, I aint gonna change...there aint no changing me!!!".

For those reading, this might not make any sense to you but if there's anything you should keep in mind, it is this - Don't act indifferent about certain things about you that you obviously need to work on. It may be attitude, habits etc. Indifference works sometimes, but please...please, don't be tossed about by Indifference....Be sure of what you want to change, what you have to change, and maybe how you want to go about changing it. I'm sure the world would become a better place if every one of us tries to apply this to our lives....I'm doing the same on my end!!!

HAPPY LABOUR DAY!!!

UPDATES!! :-)

2010-04-07T17:53:00.003+08:00

Yeaaahoooo!!!

I've been away for quite a long while....A lot has happened during this long while....I'm sure gonna be updating soon...For my ardent readers, you might not have to wait too long......Yeah, I've been bogged down with a lot for sometime now...Final year in Uni is sure no joke. Anywayz, I've decided for sure that I'm gonna be blogging for leisure...A sure way to keep the stress away, and satisfy my creative mind.

Stay tuned! :-)

~WHAT DO WOMEN REALLY WANT?!?!?!

2009-08-01T09:56:00.013+08:00

I've come across a lot of guys who keep asking this same question "What do women/girls/ladies really want?!...It's beginning to become a rhetorical one to them. So many times, I'm disappointed to see that some guys seem to be ready to know what women really want, but they don't seem to be patient enough to find out...Hmmm...If only they could be patient, it'll not be long before they really understand the woman they're dealing(or in love) with.

So really, what do women really want? I came across an article published by a dating site, and just thought I should share it here, for the sake of those who would love to know. I'll also share my opinion about these points made by them.

Here's the article:

Dating Tips: 9 Simple Things Women Want
By YourTango.com

Besides the meaning of life and the ingredients of hot dogs, many a man has questioned, "What exactly do women want?" We're not playing coy here, we know we're complex creatures. And, true, we operate on a different wavelength than men.

But women aren't exactly the great mystery that men often make us out to be. The proof? We polled the YourTango staff and compiled a list of 9 simple things women want. Note: you won't find diamond rings or other fancy things anywhere on this list. While many women really do want luxury goods from men, when you break it down they are just physical representations of some of the points on this list. We promise.

1. Respect. Show us through your actions that you respect our opinions, careers, interests, friends, bodies, and minds. You don't have to agree with all that we say or do, but try to honor our opinions as valuable contributions. Follow the golden rule and treat us as you would like to be treated: Be honest, fair, kind, and considerate.

2. Romance. It's another night on the couch with takeout and TiVo? Just because we're staying in doesn't mean the evening can't be romantic. Light a few candles and see where the night leads. Treat us like your girlfriend, even after we become your wife. Date nights, physical affection in the car, kissing like when we first started dating -- all of the things that made us fall in love with you don't have to stop just because now there are bills to pay, a house to be cleaned, and kids to be bathed. Bring home flowers for no reason. We're not talking $100 bouquets of roses here. Even the $10 bouquets from the supermarket are enough to make us smile.

3. Time. We understand relationships can't be all wine and roses; simply making the time to be with us and treating us like your top priority says "love" more than all the fancy gifts and lovely letters ever could. This includes helping around the house. The realities of a 21st-century relationship are that both partners probably work. If you happen to get home before we do, why not vacuum the living room or throw in a load of laundry? If you take the garbage out without being asked, chances are you'll be getting a big ole smooch when you come back.

4. Dinner. Of the homemade variety. You may not be good at cooking and you may not know how to boil water. But greeting us at the door after a long day with fish sticks (or whatever you can wrastle up) makes us swoon, because it shows that you've been thinking about us and our hectic day.

5. Communication. Women are vocal creatures. We know you love us, but it's nice to hear you say it, too. We can also be insecure. We wish we weren't, but the reality is that we often notice our wobbly thighs and forget about our gorgeous eyes. So let us know when you think we're hot. Tell us we're beautiful. It helps us feel good. Words of appreciation aren't half-bad either. Tell us you love the lasagna we made. Notice that we cleaned the bathtub. It doesn't have to be over the top, just let us know that you see the effort we put in, and you're grateful.

6. Consistency. This doesn't mean be boring and predictable. It means that we know you will (usually -- no one is perfect!) give us the love and support we need. Knowing that you're coming at this with the same desires and energy as we are goes a long way to making us feel secure.

7. Engagement. Of the mental kind, not the "I'm getting married in the morning" kind. You don't have to like everything we like (we might be a little concerned if you do), but showing interest in our passions, be it career-related, a sport, or a hobby, goes a long way. Listen when we talk to you. We're not speaking just so we can hear our own voice; we want to connect with you and this is one valuable way we do this. This also means paying attention to the little things. Whether it's the name of your best friend's husband or the fact that you hate Nicolas Cage movies, it's the little things you remember about us that's so endearing.

8. Humor and Humility. These two tend to go hand in hand. This doesn't mean that you have to crack jokes or entertain us, but just being able to laugh at yourself is enough. Guys who take themselves too seriously bring everyone down.

9. Challenge. Not the kind that makes a relationship constant work, but the good kind that surprises and motivates us to do, be, or achieve what we desire. Studies show that partners who prod each other to meet goals -- in other words, don't support lazy or bad habits -- are ultimately happier than those who don't hold each other accountable.

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So, what do I have to say about this?! I'll say it's perfectly true!!! I remember having a chit-chat with some of my male friends, and the issue of what women really want came up. Almost all of this 9points summarized above were mentioned to them(this was actually a long time ago, and this article wasn't yet published!!!). So guess this will go a long way to tell them that actually, women have a mind, and look forward to certain things in a relationship.

One more thing I'll like to add is this: Women want a man they can TRUST. Apart from being consistent, a woman wants to be able to trust her man, and also to be able to win his trust. I mean, what good is it if each time you see her with another guy, you begin to feel like she's cheating on you?! She on her own end will very much like to be sure that you aint doing anything ridiculous behind her back. Tell her everything she needs to know....Don't leave her always guessing the kind of person you are....If she sees that you tell her everything, she'll feel more comfortable telling you everything too. She should know your weaknesses and your strengths...Like, if you have a flare for beautiful ladies, she should know...Guess she'll be there to help you out on that, so you don't end up cheating on her....lol...

So for the guys out there, if you've been getting it all wrong in your relationship, or you are getting ready to be in one, this could be a good way to start. Try to see how you could inculcate these in your relationship and I bet you, you're going to have one of the best relationship ever.

I really am looking forward to seeing an article on "what men really want"...Guess we ladies are also oblivious of what guys really want. Anyone out there? Please, help out!!!

Okay, I'll stop here....Stay tuned!!!

~ UNFAITHFULNESS IN RELATIONSHIPS

2009-07-31T22:15:00.008+08:00

A recent event got me wondering: "What would be my response if I realize that my spouse or boyfriend who I am so in love with is cheating on me?!" Hmm....difficult one right? That's how I feel too....I really can't tell what my response will be. God help me that I don't act on impulse....

Now, imagine what it would be like, you've been married to the "supposed" love of your life for 20years, and then just recently, you realize that he/she has been cheating on you. Damn! What a gruesome thing to do.....I just can't think of it....I mean it's normal to hear stories of unfaithfulness in relationships outside marriage, but when it comes to marriage...hmmm, I wonder if I can stand it....It'll really need a lot of God's grace!!!

Here's a recent story about a woman who poured boiling water on her unfaithful husband's crotch while he was asleep: http://www.nydailynews.com/news/ny_crime/2009/07/28/2009-07-28_she_scalds_hubby_for_his_cheatin.html. Now, she did this at 6am, so I'm wondering, what on earth must have been going through her mind all night?! Come to think of it, they've been married for 20years, so that gets me thinking, has he been cheating on her all this while, or was it something he started to do recently?

I'm wondering, what is it that a woman would do that would make her husband cheat on her? Isn't she attractive enough? Has she not been available to him?! Hmmmm....questions upon questions flood my mind....Now I'm wondering what went through her mind before she chose to carry out such act on him. She's 67 years old, and should be a grand-mum already....wonder how old her hubby is that he should still be cheating.....

About her actions, I must say I can't really blame her.....I just really don't see the reason why a woman at 67 should allow her anger lead her to such revenge on a man she's been with for 20years. I can't say I blame her hubby for cheating on her, but I must say this story should be a lesson to other guys who think they can mess with their wives in such manner.....A woman's mind is flooded with thoughts each time, sometimes we don't have enough time to think of the consequences of our actions, before we carry them out (especially when it comes to things that really get us pissed).

For me, I'll keep praying to God to give me a man that will never think of cheating on me....Even if he did it when he wasn't married, it should not cross his mind when he now already has me in his arms....

PEACE!!!

~PERFECT TIMING!!!

2009-07-24T00:32:00.008+08:00

I just remembered this story, and I decided that it's good I share with anyone ready to listen (or read) to the end. The author of this story, I do not know, but each time I remember it, I'm reminded of how many times I forget that God has my life story written on the palm of His hands, and He has planned every part of it, but I seem to lengthen my journey here on earth by doing things that are not in His plan. Sometimes we struggle for what we cannot get, or will I say for what shouldn't be ours, and to no avail. If only we could just ask God to help us see through His own eyes, things will be a lot better....So, here goes the story...I hope you can at least get the message.
A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared on the cocoon. He sat & watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and it could go no further.

So the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon.

The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings.

The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

This did not happen! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.
Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. If God allowed us to go through our lives without any obstacles, it would cripple us.

We would not be as strong as what we could have been. We could never fly!
God's timing is PERFECT! So the next time you find yourself struggling for something that is not so necessary for you at the time-being, ask yourself this "IS IT REALLY WORTH IT ?!" Then Pray to God to help you see things clearly.... What God wants for your life is worth the struggle, what He doesn't have in His plan is not worth it.

THE FUTURE BELONGS TO THOSE WHO BELIEVE IN THE BEAUTY OF THEIR DREAMS!!!

~ LOVE OR INFATUATION?!?!?!

2009-07-23T19:42:00.009+08:00

So I've been thinking, what does it really mean to be in love? I've really been doing a lot of thinking these days....I've watched my environment for a while, and a lot of things I see do not cease to amuse me...

What really is love about?!

Is love all about a feeling? Is it just about a feeling you have towards something attractive?

Is it just about seeing something u value in a person, and been drawn to the person because of that?

Is love conditional? Is it affected by distance?

Is love doubtful? Does it seem unsure of how it feels?

Is love selfish? Is it out to destroy?

Is love always demanding? Does it always seek to get something from the object of affection?

Hmmm...I really wonder....So many people think they know what love is all about, but I bet, you cannot completely define love, cos "what is good for the goose might not be good for the gander".

There's a story about G(x) who seems to be in a dilemma right now. G(x) appears to be in love with A(y) and B(y)...or at least that's what they both think....Funny thing is from the stand-point of others, G(x) is actually playing some games.....Now let's see what comes out of it.

G(x) shows affection to both A(y) and B(y).....whether the affection shown to both of them is equal is known to only G(x). Both fall for it, and are now moving in a cycle...To me, it seems like "chasing each other's asses"....lol....They move in a cycle, and G(x) stands at an end watching....Sometimes, they seem to come to their senses, at other times, they seem to get back into the "emotional roller coaster". Now, what annoys me most is the fact that it is beginning to seem like all people who fall into the same group as G(x) have the same character as G(x). Well, guess it'll take someone like G(x) but with a different mindset & character to proof them wrong!!!

Hmmm...Does any part of this story seem unclear....I guess u can picture what I'm trying to talk about.....All I can say is there is a difference between love and infatuation....The three are just been carried away in a wave of infatuation, but unfortunately interpreting it as love....

Okay, I'll stop here...Just my point of view from what I have seen so far.... I pray that A(y) and B(y) come to their senses, coz it seems to be getting too late...

I'm out!!!

~ WHAT IS THIS I FEEL?!?!?!

2009-05-05T15:35:00.004+08:00

What is this I feel?
Can't seem to figure it out.

Thought it should be mutual,
But nay, it seems to be turning brutal.

The heart seems to be sinking, rather than singing,
It seems sorrowful, rather than Joyful.

Why should it be so?...I keep thinking.
When it all started, I could hear my heart ringing
Like the sound of the ancient church bells, it was jingling.

My heart tells me it's for real,
But somehow I'm not sure I'm ready for the deal,
For to accept the deal, will require a seal.

She does not say the words,
But her actions...they improvise for her lack of words.

Her words indicate lack of interest,
But her actions....Oh! They betray her interest.

I've got to be patient, she seems to say,
For my emotions I want not to sway.

What is this I feel, I repeatedly ask
It sure has been an endless task
Oh Lord! Rescue me from this clueless mask!!!

WHEN LOVE ACHES!!!
xoxo

~ UPDATE!!!

2009-01-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

Been away for 3days & 2nights...Was at Malaysia Bible Seminary, Rawang for my Uni's Christian Fellowship Camp. It was a very wonderful experience, as we all had fun playing and fellowshipping with each other.

I wish I could give details of it, but I can't right now. I'll just add photos to my album, hoping that that will do. Feeling a bit light-headed after something that happened today. I hope to be able to document it later when I feel better. For now, I need more of God's grace to guide me through my current state.

Got to go to bed now. Not feeling too strong.

~ A MEMORABLE DAY!!!

2009-01-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today is one of the days I'll never forget. Went out with 2 of my close friends (GT &IB). We needed time and space to catch up, so I suggested the outing, and ensured that it was only the 3 of us that went out.

We spent the whole day at Berjaya Times Square, Kuala Lumpur. The trio set out as early as 12:30pm, so we could have enough time outside before the night came. We were at Kenny Roger's Roasters for lunch, then to Como's World Theme Park for some fun, after which we had dinner at KFC, then went on to watch a movie at Golden Screen Cinemas.

It was my first time trying KRR, and I must say I think I like their food too, but not to be compared to my NANDOS. NANDOS spices are so "Unique". From KRR, we went on to get movie tickets, and amongst the movies for that day, we all felt "YES MAN" was a very good choice, so we got the ticket for it, and had to spend the next 4hrs + at the Park and waiting for 7:10pm since this was the time the movie would be showing.

Our experience at the park is one of the many things that makes this day a memorable one. We got the chance to get on the roller coaster there, tried the Car Ride, and also the DNA Mixer. The Entry Ticket price was pretty expensive - RM38 per person (Adult price), datz about 11USD per person, so we paid RM114 for the 3 of us. The roller coaster experience was cool, and so was the Car ride. However, the DNA Mixer spoiled the day, coz not only was it a very dangerous ride where we were tossed about in very weird directions, but also the tossing was done for longer than usual...Can't really figure out why the guy made it that way for us. At the end of it, we were so dizzy that we couldn't get to play any other games, plus IB threw-up because she felt so dizzy that she couldn't help it. We went on for Dinner at KFC, and then to the movies. The movie choice was perfect for us. YES MAN - Starring Jim Carrey is such a lovely movie. We really enjoyed it.

We all got back home at about 11:30pm, feeling exhausted but happy that our day went well. Indeed it was a memorable one. I'll add the photos to my album as soon as I can, but for now though I feel really exhausted, I've got to go on and do my packing for CF Camp 2moro. I hope it's going to be fun too.

~ PLANS FOR SEMESTER BREAK!!!

2009-01-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

Finally exams are over, and the next I find myself thinking of is what to do for the next 1week break. Not that it's a lot of time, but there seems to be many things I want to do within limited time. Well, I've already planned an outing with two of my very close friends. It's been a long time we spent time alone with each other, and we seem to be getting more distant away from each other as the days go by. I'm thinking it's going to be some fun time for us, since we'll be having lunch and dinner outside, and we'll be going to the fun park...Well, let's see how it goes. The main idea is for us to have fun while hanging out, and to be able to reminiscence of the good old times. I'm really looking forward to it, and I know that it's going to turn out fine.

The rest of the break will be spent in a camp, and in other places I haven't yet figured out. Can't wait to have fun!!!

~ WHY DO GUYS TEND TO BE SO POSSESSIVE?!?!?!

2009-01-18T21:20:00.008+08:00

I've been pondering on this question, but it seems to be rhetorical to me...Haven't been able to figure out an answer for it...Why do most guys tend to be possessive....Now, don't get me wrong, but I think this is the opinion or will I say conclusion I have reached after several experiences with some close friends who are guys...

I've got a lot of male friends...not because I'm so interested in guys, but because I find myself being more comfortable hanging out with guys...I kinda shy away from hanging out with girls coz of some "girly stuffs" that I can put-up with. Don't mis-interprete what I'm trying to say, I'm in no way a T-Boy...I'm just free-minded around guys, and that's all about it....

Now to what makes me see guys as possessive, I realize that a high percentage of my male friends act jealously when they see me with some other guy (even if the guy is no stranger to them). Funny thing is, I keep wondering, why is it so?? I'm in no way in a serious relationship with any of them, and I don't intend to be coz i'm not looking out for one....I try to interprete their gestures in the mildest way that I can, but I find it difficult to. Sometime ago, I had no choice, but to take out time to ask some of them personally, and to my utter surprise, they all had the same thing to say about it. Here's the conclusion "If a guy loves a girl, He'll not be happy if he sees that she seems to be very comfortable with another guy". Now the "being comfortable" has nothing to do with being in a serious or even flirty relationship with the guy in question.

Now to the other side of it, most of these guys actaully want to mix-up with all the other girls, but do not want the girl they hold dear to their heart to mix-up with other guys. They want to know the girl's every move, but do not care to tell her where they go all the time (sometimes they do, at other times they don't).... To me, this is pretty "Ironical", and difficult for me to put up with. Do guys really think "it's a man's world"? Shouldn't ladies have a say sometimes?? I'm not so much of a Jealous lover (at least I know). I believe in allowing my man do whatever he feels is best for him, as long as it's not "illegal"...I mean in my own terms. So why on earth would a guy not want to see a girl he loves happy? Why would he always feel that there is something wrong with her hanging out with other guys??? I really get freaked out, coz I'm still trying to get a concrete answer to it!!!

So the question remains..... "WHY DO GUYS TEND TO BE POSSESSIVE???"

~ AUCTIONING VIRGINITY ONLINE???

2009-01-17T11:46:00.001+08:00

It's really very disappointing to see what this world is turning into...Just recently, I read this post on Fox News that talks about a 22-year-old girl who is auctioning her virginity for $3.7million...Now datz really hilarious you might say, but I think there is more to it.

Now, come to think of it, I really wonder what on earth would make her do that...I mean, if she has manged to stay that way to this extent/age (after all so many people get to lose their virginity at an age earlier than that), then why can't she remain that way until she meets Mr. Right?

Well...well, different people have their own opinion about issues of virginity...but for me, I find this really humiliating. No matter how desperate one may be for money, or whatever reason it is, I don't think auctioning one's virginity online should be an option...Now that's my opinion okay??

I believe there a lot of people, especially girls out there who wish they hadn't lost their virginity...especially when they think of the person to whom they gave it out....talk more of if it has to be a stranger....I mean someone who gets the information online and bids for it...Well, like I said, this is still my opinion...I believe everyone is entitled to their opinion...But, I'll love to ask this question to you who is reading this blog entry....What do you think about this? What'z your opinion about this auctioning of virginity online???

P.S: To see original story, click here http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,480037,00.html

~ 1ST DAY OF EXAM!!!

2009-01-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

Exams have finally started....Had my first paper today! How was it??? Well, it was supposed to be very good, except that there were a lot of mistakes in the typing or will I say the setting of the questions. Can't really tell who made the mistake (whether lecturer or typist).... Lecturer didn't come to make the necessary corrections on the questions until over an hour into the exam...probably that was when he was called by the invigilator...can't really tell....

Almost everyone was freaked out coz lecturer's presence didn't make any much difference. It only made Us get angrier at the end of the day. After the exam, there was a suggestion that everyone in class should write to the Dean of Faculty, reporting the case of the exam papers to him. So many reasons why it was right to do so:

1. The questions didn't seem like they were proof-read before they were printed.

2. When he was called to come and make corrections on the questions, he did it specifically for those who called him to their side, rather than for the whole class to hear. With this, those who didn't get the opportunity to call him to their side ended up answering the questions using the values(supposedly wrong) they saw on the paper....

3. The mistakes in the questions reminded us of how disorganized this lecturer had been throughout the semester...never giving us lecture notes that were well-structured, Coursework had a lot of formatting errors, and he even had to modify one of them, and extend deadline coz of modification.

4. We were not given the opportunity to evaluate lecturers at the end of the semester....rather we were asked to evaluate the module...Was this what we needed to do??....NO! Not at all...I mean who gives a damn about the module....It's the lecturer that makes the module what it is for the students...the impression comes from the efficiency or will I say competency of the lecturer.

Well, what did I do about it? I felt it would be better I send a mail to the lecturer instead, and CC Dean of Faculty. Better that way, so it doesn't feel like we are blackmailing him, and also, so that the Dean will be aware of the situation at hand....

Hmmm....I'm waiting for a response from him..Hopefully he'll put the mistakes made in the questions into consideration when marking the scripts, else we stand chances of losing a lot of marks.... Well..., the rest is in God's hands!!!

It is well!!!

~ GEARING UP!!!

2009-01-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah! It's Saturday again...And what did I do today...emmm....let's see...I did practically nothing for self. Had to go to Church earlier than usual for camp planning committee meeting, and then for Worship team Practice. It was really a hectic one for me, especially because I went to bed pretty late last night...or will I say at the dawn of this morning, and had to be up before 11am, and prepare to set out for church at 12:30pm. Well, what do I say...It's God's work, and that's why I cannot just hold back from doing what pleases Him besides, I'll be excused of duties in worship team until after my exams. Not that I'm so looking forward to it, but I think it's a wise thing to do, so that I can prepare adequately.

Yay! I'm counting down to the start of my 1st semester's exam. How do I feel??? Emmm....I really can't tell... Got some mixed feelings especially because I'll be sitting for 5 modules, and I really haven't done much in terms of preparations. I'm trusting God for the best anywayz, I know He'll make all things work according to His plans...

I'll be doing a lot of studying for the next 3weeks. Can't wait to be done with the exams. Well, I'll just gear up, keep my fingers crossed, do all I need to do, and trust God for the rest....

~ HAPI NU YR!!!

2009-01-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

Yeah! It's a new year. So grateful to God for making it possible. I'm glad to see this year 2009.

Today was really a wonderful one for me. Spent time out with friends. We went to KLCC Twin Towers for New Year's lunch...lol.... Yeah, we had to take a train all the way down, and the journey seemed longer than usual...Or maybe it was just me being a little bit impatient for it.

When we got there and my friends were debating about where to have lunch, I quickly suggested my favorite NANDOS. Three of them hadn't tried NANDOS before, so I chided in the opportunity to help them make their orders.....ha ha!! The food was very nice (as usual), and we had some real nice time together. The pictures are yet to be given to me. I'll have to add them to my album when they get to me.

From KLCC, we went to Mid Valley Mega Mall. We had some more fun, and I returned to school at about 12midnight, feeling very exhausted, but pleased with how I spent my day.....Yeah! I needed to have fun, coz I'll be sitting my ass down to study for the next 3weeks for my exams this Semester...

Ok..got to go now...Feeling very sleepy already, and it's midnight here...

~ LAST DAY OF 2008!!!

2008-12-31T19:19:00.000+08:00

Yay! Finally it's here....Finally this year has come to an end. Can't really tell how I feel. Happy or Sad?? Well..., mixed feelings....Happy about things I achieved, Sad about things I couldn't achieve, and wrong decisions I made. Well, I guess it's time to right the wrongs...I'll have to make serious amends to whatever needs to be amended.

I'll be in Church tonight for Countdown. Looking forward to it. I know it's gonna be great...Wonderful service..Singing praises to God in different languages (Bahasa Melayu, Tamil, Mandarin and English)....Wow! what a multi-cultural body....Yeah! That's what the body of Christ...We still are one body in Christ...

As for my resolutions for the New Year...Yeah! I'm done with it, but I've decided to keep it as my little secret...I mean, there's no need making it public...But if need be, I'll tell whoever I feel needs to know about it.

Got to go now, just trying to update, since I'm not sure to be here later tonight. Will be in Church all night.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

~ REFLECTIONS...

2008-12-30T11:45:00.000+08:00

As the year 2008 comes to an end, I see the need to reflect as always.... I've decided to take time to Fast & Pray throughout the last 3days of this year. Purpose - To seek God's face, ask for His forgiveness in areas I have erred in the year 2008, find out what He has to say about 2009.

Well..., so far, I must say it has really been profitable. I feel closer to God each day. First I realized how unfit I was to stand before God, coz of the wrong things I have done this year, and the times I have neglected God's path. But then, He reminds me that He is a God that forgives, and all that He requires of me is that I take a 180 degree turn and return to my place in Him, in His Presence.

I'm still waiting to see what the last day of this year will be for me. Seeking to hear more, more of God's voice. More of His intentions towards me, and His plans for my life in the year 2009, and also for the Church (All Christians are in this category).

I've got to update. I'll put up what I think is needed to be seen by all as soon as I can. God has a lot to reveal to His Church. I believe it's going to be Glorious.

Cheers!!!

~ CHRISTMAS DAY!!!

2008-12-25T23:50:00.002+08:00

Finally, it's Christmas day! Today was a very wonderful one for me. Went to bed at about 3am, and had to get up at 7am to prepare for Christmas service at 9am. Had to leave school at 8am, and that's my reason for waking up at 7am...lol...

Service was wonderful. Singing Carols, worshiping God for His wonderful gift to the world (JESUS CHRIST) and also listening to a very challenging sermon from our Beloved Pastor - Rev. Chan Nam Chen. I got to learn a lot from the message, and although he didn't give it a particular topic, I think I am free to tag it as "Life's Uncertainties and God's Certainty". He talked about how Uncertain life is....how we can be so unsure of what our tomorrow may be....People live today, yet tomorrow we see them no more...Finances are good today, yet tomorrow you hear of world financial crisis...You have happiness this moment, the next you encounter something that makes you so sad.

Something he said struck my heart, and caused me to ponder. Although we live in a world of uncertainties, Our God is a God of certainties. He took a very good example, pointing us to the birth of Christ which we are now celebrating. He talked about how the birth of Christ was prophesied about 160times in the old testament times of the Bible. How Esias (Isaiah) the prophet talked about the birth of Jesus, and what the birth of Jesus would mean to the situation of Israel at that time. "Christmas is not an uncertainty" said Rev. Chan. God was certain that someone had to be sent to redeem the world. and so He saw the need to send His Son Jesus Christ. When God looks at us, He does not judge by our appearance. We might be living a life of uncertainty, but all we need to do is accept God's gift to us, and make our life insured in Him by drawing close to Him. Then we can be assured about things in our lives that seem uncertain.

Some things about God's certainties:
- They can be confirmed through the Bible. Constant study of the Bible makes you certain of what God has done, cannot do, and what He still can do.

- It has the power to transform us if we allow it to rule our life. Very clearly, this means when you believe in what God can do, and you trust in His word, you will be transformed by the power of His word.

Certain facts:
- We need a Saviour. Datz why God sent His Son right???
- We need God with us. His Son is called "Immanuel" meaning "God with Us"

God's precious gift to Us should be accepted with thanksgiving. That's why as Christians, we celebrate Christmas differently.

Powerful message right? Yeah it was! Though it was a short message, we made a lot of references to books of the Bible especially the book of Isaiah. The message ended with a call for all those who felt uncertain about some things in their lives to step out in Faith and be prayed for. After the message, we had 2 more songs sang, as everyone went about to wish those in Church a Blessed Christmas.

I had some photo sessions with my friends and that was it for the morning. What was next? Go home, take a rest, study a little for upcoming exams, then prepare for outing with friends at 6pm. Yeah! That was what I did. Many people had studying out of their plans for the day...I pride in myself for being so studious...lol...

The outing was a wonderful one. We all went out to a renowned shopping mall in Kuala Lumpur (Mid Valley Mega Mall). The trip down there wasn't so cosy, since we had to go by Train. Five of Us had to catch the 6pm school bus down to the train station, while the other 2 had to come later on cause they were in a meeting and couldn't meet up the school bus. When we got to the station, the train passed by while we were still trying to get our tickets. We therefore would have to wait for another 15mins....Yay! I hated doing this, standing for 15mins coz there were a lot of people there also, and there were no empty seats. Then I prayed so well that I wouldn't have to stand all the way in the train since this has been the trend most times I've used the trains here in Malaysia. There seems to be a lot of people who prefer to travel by train...Luckily, I didn't have to....Thank God!!!

The train arrived and I quickly dashed for a seat. I was pretty lucky!!! It seemed like a long journey from Kajang to Mid Valley, unlike the 30mins it usually takes... or was it just me being too impatient to get there and have fun??? ha ha!!!

Well, finally we got there, and while we had to wait for the other 2 to meet up with us, we spent time taking photos, window-shopping and watching a very funny dance that was going on there in the Center Court of Mid Valley Mega Mall. Very funny one it was!!! The other two finally came, and down we went to NANDOS...Now Nandos is my favorite, and you can imagine how I felt when we got there and realized that there were so many people and we had to be on a queue before we could get in. Well, luckily it wasn't for long, as they found a comfortable position for 7 of us within 10mins. We made our order (I didn't need to look at the menu cos I already knew what I wanted..... ha ha ha!!! ) and then we spent the time waiting and chatting about a lot of things. Food finally came, we took some more photos, and all went into the munching session...Nice meal it was!!!

We finally got set to leave at about 10pm, coz we needed to catch the train, and the 11:30pm bus back to school. On getting to the train station, we realized that the counter had closed, and there were several long queues of people waiting to get their tickets from the ticket vending machines. We decided to queue at different points while the first person to get to the front of any of the machines where we were queued up would have to buy for all of us. That really was a good idea since we were all together.After getting the tickets, it was time to wait for the train. We waited for about 15mins for the train to arrive, and luckily it wasn't so full this time, though I didn't get a seat. The journey back wasn't so bad, and we were grateful to God that we met the school bus.

Everyone of us was excited about the outing, and we hope to have another one for New Year's day. I'm going to bed now. No need to study again since I'm very tired. I'll add the photos to my album as soon as I get them.

BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!

~ CHRISTMAS EVE!!!

2008-12-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Christmas is here again... And with the hustling and bustling of the year so far, the achievements and the losses... the good times and the not so good times...everyone is preparing for one of the greatest times in human history....THE CELEBRATION OF THE BIRTH OF JESUS CHRIST!!!

Although Christmas is a time when almost everyone in the world celebrates and takes time to have fun with friends and family, it's kinda embarrassing to realize that a lot of people still do not know the significance of Christmas. Some think Christmas is about giving gifts, some think it is about getting together with friends and family to have fun and a kinda family reunion, some think it is about singing Christmas songs/Carols, and the rest think it is about a guy in a fable...the guy they call "SANTA CLAUS"....It's really saddening to hear a lot of people give such opinions about Christmas. Well, they don't know, and we really must let them know ~~ CHRISTMAS IS ABOUT JESUS CHRIST!!!

As I think about the real significance of Christmas, I'm amazed at how God chose to come in flesh just for the sake of a "bunch of sinners"....I'm amazed at how he chose to die for me, for you, for us all...He sent His Son...His only begotten Son (John 3:16)...who would ever do that??? (Yay! Not me!!!). But He did, and I'm must grateful to Him. Cool isn't it???

Now to what today was like for me...It's 24th Dec, 2008....Christmas Eve. Malaysia is not as bubbling as it would be in Nigeria, the UK or even the US....Why??? Well..., I leave that to you to figure out....Maybe it's becoz it's known to be an Islamic nation....Well, just maybe...However, today wasn't so bad for me. Although I cannot be home to celebrate Christmas with my family and friends, I still had Fun!!! My Family here (African Students Fellowship) which consitsts of mostly Africans had a get together organinzed for us all. It was tagged "LOVE FEAST!!!", and we were to celebrate God's love for us by singing carols, exchanging gifts and we had a lot of food to eat. It really was fun!!!

Although I miss being with my family in times like this, I still thank God that I'm not left alone here in Malaysia....It would have been a terrible one if I was. I'm looking forward to what tomorrow (Christmas day) is gonna be like. My friends and I have made some plans to have dinner out in one of the renowned malls in Kuala Lumpur (Mid- Valley Mega Mall). It sure will be fun...I can't wait!!!

Ok! Got to go to bed now...Will update y'all on the rest of the Christmas experience tomorrow. But permit me to leave you with one message: CHRIST is the reason for Christmas, and we ought to realize that fact and draw closer to Him in love. He is deeply in love with Us, and He wants us to fall in love with him too!!!

Luv ya!!!

~ PLANS FOR THE COMING YEAR (2009)!!!

2008-12-22T15:55:00.001+08:00

For sometime now, I've been trying to do a recap of what this year (2008) has been like for me: My achievements, my good works, right choices,... the times when I screwed up, the things I did wrong, and even the wrong choices I made. I've come to realize that though I wasn't able to meet up to all my expectations for this year, there's been a lot that I've learnt.

I've learnt to love more, tolerate more, work harder, appreciate more and above all, to Trust more in God. Yeah! There were times when I screwed up, doing the wrong things, going my own way, getting involved in things I wasn't s'posed to get myself into, but God has really been merciful. I've faced situations were it seemed difficult to extend love to certain people, swallow all the sh** one received from some people, etc. etc...but God still showed himself strong in my life.

There were times when I felt like a total nuisance...helpless, weak and trembling before God, times when I felt I had no reason to live, but it was in those times that God stepped in and reminded me that He had already given me a reason to live when He sent His Son (Jesus Christ) to die for my sin and bring me undeserved Grace...Salvation for my soul.

There were times when I felt I had arrived, I felt I had achieved so much on my own, but then God reminded me that "Without Him, I can do nothing". Then I would have to repent of my self-righteousness and return to rely solely on Him.

I've lived by God's grace throughout this year, and now I am left to ponder on what I want the coming year (2009) to be for me. I had this thought in mind for a while, but didn't think deeply about it until just recently. Taking a count down, it's obvious that I've got about 8days to the end of this year...and if God tarries, I've got to set plans spinning on for the coming year. I promised myself that I would make a self-checklist, but as is the result of procrastination, I haven't done so until now. Got a call from someone special today, and one of the questions he asked me was this "Winnie, watz ur plan for the coming year?"...I could only whisper a few words as an answer...Here's my reply "emmm...well, I haven't set out any definite plan, but what I have made up my mind to do is to Draw closer to God and work harder towards fulfilling His plans for my life, by making use of His grace that He has made available to me..." Now that's a very general statement right??? Okay! I'm working towards making them more specific, and I believe that before this year runs out, I should be ready to implement it.

Life is not always the way we want it to be, but what matters most is who or what controls our life. For me, I think the best thing to hold on to is the sayings of the Bible "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's Purpose that prevails" (Prov 19:21 - NIV).

I work towards fulfilling my Purpose is Christ....Mine is a Purpose-driven life!!!

~ THE DREAM 2008!!!

2008-12-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

For over 2months, there's been a group of people who have been pretty busy preparing for a Christmas drama production tagged "THE DREAM 2008". It had been a wonderful time, from auditions for cast, voice recording, rehearsals once in every week (from Oct to Dec), final rehearsals with costumes & Props, and then to the D-Day1!

The Christmas Drama Production by Kajang Assembly of God Church, Malaysia promised to be a blast, and sure it was!!! The play got so much publicity, that it even appeared in one of Malaysia's renowned Newspapers "THE STAR"...Here's a little write up about the play, as published by THE STAR newspaper....

To see the full story, check it out on http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2008/12/10/central/2724537&sec=central That's the link to the actual publication by Star Newspaper. You may also find out more about the drama on http://www.kaog.org.my/thedream2008

For me, I must say it was a wonderful time... Not just because I had fun while playing my role in the drama, but because I know that the name of the Lord will be glorified through the drama. It was a tedious one for me, especially the aspect of having to practice every Sunday in the months of October, November and also about 3times in the early weeks of December, but amidst all the time spent and energy expended, I must admit that God was really in it...He made all things go as He wanted it to.

The drama was staged on two different days (19th & 20th Dec), and we had the hall filled with lots of people, a different crowd on each day. The exact number of those who came to see the drama presentation, I really can't figure out for now.

There's really a lot to say, but I really do not know exactly how to say it. Now I regret why I haven't kept up-to-date for the past one month. Well....I'll see what I can do to put up some of the photos of the event as soon as I get them from anyone.

For now, I've got to sit my ass down and prepare for my exams that comes up in 1st week of Jan '09. Well....nothing to fear, God is in Control!!!

~ Blogging - A time-waster!!!

2008-11-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

Just recently, I'm beginning to see blogging as a time-waster. Yeah! I find blogging very interesting, but I'm wondering how I can cope with doing this and also facing my studies squarely. I'm afraid, one of them has to suffer (and of course it shouldn't be my studies). I've got a lot of academic work to do out here...and also a lot of other responsibilities to handle....wondering how I can combine them all...aaarrrggghhhh!!!

Yeah! There's a lot I've come to learn through blogging, but should this be at the expense of my studies which is presently very precious to me??? I don't really know how to answer this. Sometimes I'm right on the books, and all of a sudden my mind goes to blogging. Thoughts of a lot of things I yearn to talk about...write about keep coming. Most times I ignore them but keep getting a bout of guilt for not being up-to-date. Sometimes, I get the thought "Oh! I shouldn't have started a blog at all" But blogging is fun...FUN! FUN!! FUN!!!

Okay, I know what to do. I think what I need is a lot more effort added to self-discipline. I've got to set my priorities right and make out a time on my schedule specially for blogging, and any time outside that slot should never be used to visit blogs...Think that will work?? Yeah, Sure! I really, really hope it does. I'll try it out, and I believe I'll be okay with it very soon. Exams are pretty close, and the earlier I stick to this rule, the better for me.

So, friends if you realise that I'm not keeping up-to-date, just be patient with me, I'll do that as often as I think is needed.

Catch Ya!!!

~My Birthday.

2008-10-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

Wow! My day started with a blast!!! My wonderful friends decided to organize a surprise b'day party for me. Now, I don't know how they got about it, but I must say it was really a wonderful plan. Good sense of organization!!!

They were about twenty(20) of them..., and I was really shocked to see all of them walk into my room at exactly 12midnight(at the start of the day)...they sure didn't want to miss it coz their plan was so perfect. They made one of them keep me back in my room even when I had already gone all the way out to do something else. Yeah! I suspected they had something up their sleeves, but thought it would be something that had to do with pouring of water etc., like has been the case with several other friends...to my utter surprise, it was more blessed and calm than I could ever imagine. Lots of gifts, lots of encouraging words, lots of praises, that I just couldn't asking my "When did I do all these things, and when was I all these things that they all said I had done/been to them.

Now here's the long list of friends who made all this happen: Ib Igani, Ukelabuchi Adikema, Isaac Adoki, Pius Ile, Davidson Oriokpa, Morley Wokoma, Emmanuel Sogein, Shem Amalaya, Awai Ujile, Alali.T.Dede, Helen Ogbani, Atisi Nathan, Tomide Bamigboye, Onyemouche Ahiakwo, Landy Dangogo, Christiana I. TamunoIbelema, Collins Harrison, Kingba Lawson-Jack, Ruth Bame & Vincent Chimdi Odu.

I really am speechless till this moment....Not enough words to thank them for the wonderful gifts, words and Love they've always shown to me.

Anywayz, here are some of the Pics, so u know what it was like. Yeah! I forgot to say that I'm extremely glad that they were so gentle on me...no water-pouring, powder-pouring or Icing-on-the-face...lol...:)

THANKS FRIENDS...I LOVE Y'ALL!!!

Running away, thinking they were all set to pour some water over me!!!.....lol...

My Cake

Me, Ukela & Collins

Me & Tomide

Emmanuel & I

Ib Igani Trying to stop the wind from blowing of the candle of my cake...lol...

~ Back from the retreat!!!

2008-10-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

I’ve been away from home for 3days…was in a place without Internet connection, just with friends and some leaders in the Campus ministry. Got home to a lot of mails to sort out, work to do etc.

It was a wonderful time in God’s presence as Leaders of the Kajang Assembly of God Campus ministry went all the way to Melaka on a planning retreat. We were to plan for the next year’s activities. It was a time of learning from the truth in God’s word (THE BIBLE), having lots of fun, sharing and fellowship with one another. It was so good to be away from the hustle and bustles of school work…besides, this was the period of the Hari Raya holiday, so it was such a wonderful way to spend the holiday.

The 1^st of October was the Nigerians Independence day celebration, so we marked it by teaching our Malaysian friends to sing our National anthem, and also say the Pledge. Prayers were then offered for the Nigerians in our midst, and also for Nigeria as a whole.

Visited Melaka - the historical town of Malaysia. Was there last year during the last Leaders retreat that I was invited for, but this time around we had more time to get around more places than we did last year. Got to see the “so famous” Christ Church and some other places of interest. Got to try “Chendol” one more time….since my first time…lol…

One amazing thing happened during this retreat. It’s really a testimony, and I must say I am proud talk about it, to the Glory of God. The driver of the bus that took us from Kajang to Melaka got converted to Christianity. He was a Hindu, but he said he got to experience God’s love through us. He said he admired the way we were in one accord, how we did things etc, and decided that he wanted to live like us, giving his life up to live for Christ. We were all so excited about it, as he said the sinners’ prayer, and also promised to be in Church on Sunday for the Tamil (Indian) session of worship. This event so reminded me of God’s word that says “Ye are the light of the world,…and the salt of the earth”. I believe that through us, this guy was able to see the light in God’s word, and we had added flavor to his life through the love we all showed to him. That’s what led him to want to know more about the God we serve. I’m so excited about it, and I pray that he will get to know more about God through His Son Jesus Christ.

Wow! I could go on and on talking about the things that happened during the retreat, but I must go to bed soon coz I’ve got to be up very early tomorrow morning to do a lot of things I’ve got to do out here. I’ll just attach some of the photos for y’all to look at, and I’ll get back to you when next I blog.

Cheers!!!

~ Answering the call.

2008-09-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

Today was quite cool, it was a long and fruitful day....though with a bit of mixed feelings....Being attending a Leadership cell for a while now. Didn't realize this on time, until I was deep into it, then I was told that I'm being prepared to lead. Wow!! Was the first expression I could mutter.

Got mixed feelings about it coz I didn't see myself as ready to lead a large group. Well, myself and some others were told about it today, and I realized that I am being called to be a Cell Leader. Anywayz, I believe it is God's Will, and HE who has called me will definitely make all things go according to HIS Will.

Will be going for a leaders' retreat on the 1st of October. Expected to spend abt 3day & 2nights in Melaka. It's going to be fun, planning, & lots of fellowshippping with other leaders of the Campus ministry of Kajang Assembly of God Church, Malaysia. I'm looking forward to it.

~ What a Day!!!

2008-09-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

Today was okay...no classes in the morning. First and only class at 2pm (after lunch... ha ha ha). Interesting module (Internet & Web Services), but lecturer....not so interesting. Seeing the same faces that taught me last year...especially the ones from 2nd semester. Well, not that bad...reminds me of the cliche` "The devil you know is better than the angel you do not know"...lol.... I've got to do a lot of studying on my own for this module. It has 100% exam assessment mode, and I've got to be able to beat my target, even if circumstances try to suggest otherwise. I know I'll make it by God's grace.

I can't believe what happened today....I actually forgot it was my only sister's birthday. Didn't get to know until she called me up at night (at about 8:20pm) to ask me why I hadn't called to say Happy birthday. "Oh my God!...I'm so,..so sorry" Was all I could say. I felt so ashamed of myself coz this same thing happened last year on her birthday too....I hope she doesn't feel that I don't care about her. It's never been in my habit to forget the birthdays of people so dear to me...I really can't explain what happened. I changed my phone, and forgot to add the reminder to my new phone. Had a class, but never took notice of today's date. Well, I'm kinda glad that she said she understands. Poor thing...I'll never forget again.

I'll be studying till late tonite...or will I say until morning? I've got to get on the books now...

~ BUSY! BUSY!! BUSY!!!

2008-09-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

Finally, school resumed today. It's so exciting to see that I don't have to sit my ass around doing nothing so important any longer (at least for the next 8months...). It was really a hectic day, had 1st class at 9am, so had to get my sleepy head out of bed early enough to get to class. I was just in time for the class as I arrived at about 8:50am...not so early...ha ha ha .

Missing some old faces in my class....Ali Jawad (oh! I miss him so... so much), and two other wonderful ladies...Dulani Samarajeewa & Goh Hui Joo. Also got some new faces in class...1 guy from Indonesia (Harvey Wong), two guys on mobility scheme from our Mother Uni (The UK Campus) and one other Indian guy from......I dunno where...he he . Wondering why there's no Lady among them....hmmmm that leaves us with increasingly more guys in my department coz we are just 6 girls in it for now.

Got my first Coursework today...On Large Scale Systems Design.....not so much of a surprise coz it's the habit of this particular lecturer....can't say what I feel about that method...is it a good sign or not? Well, guess it's good coz it prepares one for what should come, and gears the mind to attentiveness since some of the stuffs we might need will be taught to us as the Semester goes on. And that keeps me busy, busy, busy!!! This semester promises to be a busy one for me, I'll just have to joggle everything up in order to meet my expectations.

Well, let's leave it at this point, and see what the rest of the week has in store for me.

~ MY GOD IS MIGHTY TO SAVE!!!

2008-09-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

Hillsongs Australia - Mighty to Save.

1) Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me

Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

Chorus:
Savior He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save

Forever Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

2) So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
And fill my life again

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender I surrender

Chorus:
Savior He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save
Forever Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave (x2)

Bridge:
Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)

Chorus:
Savior He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save
Forever Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave (x2)

Bridge
Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x4)

Today was awesome. Lot of things I've got to thank God about. Firstly, I woke up feeling better. Still a little cough and sneezing, but not like the past two days. Secondly, today's worship service was really a blessing to me.

Glad that I didn't have to take any medications for the Flu...I made up my mind to trust God for my healing, and Praise God!!..He never fails...My God is Mighty to save!!! I thought of how I would sing with the rest of the worship team today...felt I would sound very awful, but God intervened and rather than sound very awful, I was very Joyful. One of the songs on today's worship list ministered specially to me. It reminded me of how quick God is to respond to the needs of those who trust in Him unwaveringly. It is a song by Hillsong Australia - Mighty to Save. I decided to put the lyrics before what I have to say today....

The Message shared by our Senior Pastor (Pst. Chan Nam Chen) was Unique on its own. Like the words of a father, the word was kind but firm; piercing through hearts, liberating souls, challenging minds and reforming lives. FAITH, SHORT-CUTS & GOD'S GRACE he tagged it, taking Abraham as Case study (Gen 16:1-16; Gen 21:8-13).

Things I got to learn about Short-cuts:

* Short-cuts are often socially acceptable practices.
* They are often proposed to us by people who love us and mean well for us. e.g Sarai suggested to Abram to take her maid to bed, so they could bear the child that God had promised them they would.
* Short-cut works.

Some short-cuts are harmless, but some manifest negative effects in the long run.Some of these negative effects include:

* It compromises your integrity & destroys your character.
* It can cause more pain to the people we love in the long run.
* It can be disobedience to God.

The easiest way to have something done is usually not always the right way. He that learns it the hard way most of the times learns it better. Short-cuts should be avoided; there are usually consequences after taking a short-cut. We've got to obey God, even if it doesn't seem to be the best thing to do at the moment. Obey God, and trust Him to handle any consequences that seem to come your way as a result of obeying Him.

That the world says it is acceptable, doesn't make it right. God's will is what matters most.

Lord I thank You for the power in your word. I pray Lord, for the grace to stick to what You love most, and not what the world loves!!!

~ FLU DAY!!! ~

2008-09-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

Today was a difficult one for me. Not just because I had a lot to do, but also because I had to do so much when I wasn't feeling too well. There seems to be some kinda spread of Viral infections out on campus; a lot of people down with flu. Unfortunately, I now fall into the group. I think mine started like 2days ago, but I never really took note of it. I'm not used to falling ill, so I never let it bother me. Unfortunately, this one hit me real hard. Felt very terrible with a severe headache, clogged nasal tract, itchy throat and chesty cough(so painful) Datz why I tag it "FLU DAY!!!"

Still had to perform my duties at the registration stand. Had a lot of things to do at the same time coz the others in the team weren't really committed to helping out...they were rather committed to wandering about...quite annoying. Anywayz, I put in the best I could, even though I had to do a lot of multi-tasking, jumping from one point at the stand to another. However, I made sure that when I was beginning to feel weak & exhausted, I left for my room. So, on a total, I worked for about 6hrs 30mins, compared to the time spent yesterday, this was less (probably coz i felt a lot weaker today). Got back to my room at about 3:30pm (had been out since 9:00am).

My friend finally left for her country. I feel bad, but didn't shed tears when she was leaving. Just a hug.... though she is worth my tears, coz she is such a nice person.

The rest of the day??? Just okay, though I'll be going to bed with this Flu still making me feel terrible. I hope to be better by tomorrow.

Special Prayer to God:
Dear Lord, please heal me, and help me recover from this Flu that makes me feel so weak. I know that You are The Divine Healer, and that You can heal me. AMEN!!!

~ A NEW ACADEMIC SEMESTER BEGINS~

2008-09-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

Expected to wake up very early this morning, but couldn't coz I went to bed pretty late. This week happens to be registration week. The whole day was pretty busy for me cause of my involvement in my Uni's Help Squad.

Wondering what Help Squad is all about?? Well, it's a team set up and controlled by the Student arm of the University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus. It consists of all those who are willing to offer self-less services to ensure that the new & even returning students on Campus adjust quickly to the environment. Our task range from working with the Registration, IT, Int'l Officers, & Accommodation Offices. My task for this week is with the Registration team, will be with the IT Office next week.

It was quite an interesting job, but very stressful too; worked from about 9:15am to 5:15pm (Datz about 8hrs with no pay; just a little plate of rice & some cans of carbonated drinks to go for lunch). I got to meet with a lot of new students who as I expected looked very much confused about what to do and where to go. I had to put them through all what was requred of them, and explain every doubt to them. Some of them could catch up quickly, while others needed me to explain over and over again.

Some of the Students came in the company of their parents. This wasn't so much of a good idea, coz some of the parents acted a bit domineering; they never let the Children do what they needed to do without trying to influence their decision. Seeing the attitude put up by some of the parents almost made me go mad coz they sounded not so different from Racists, and this annoyed me so much.. Why do people not get to realize that there is more to this world than being an unreasonable racist??? All the same, my job went well, and I never got tempted to give anyone a punch in the face....Ha ha ha

One of my friends here is through with her studies. She'll be going back to her Country(Tanzania) 2moro. Had to attend her send-forth get together. T'was kool, but reminded me so much of how I'd miss her when she's gone. She is such a lovely person. Anywayz, things will go well by God's grace.

Final word: Day was Stressful but Kool!!!

~ POWER IN THE WORD~

2008-09-14T12:30:00.000+08:00

Today was really packed with a lot of goodies. First, "Wordilicious Investigators", then a power-packed video in Church. Didn't get to wake up as early as I was expected to... ignored the alarm as has been the case for the past few days..., but I thank God for friends who knocked hard on my door when they realized that I was not out yet. They said they knew it wasn't normal of me to miss or be late for already scheduled appointments, and they just felt that I was still sleeping, and Yeah!, they were right....lol...

"Wordilicious Investigators" was organized by Fellowship of Evangelical Students (FES) Malaysia. The name came from the notion that God's word is s'posed to be Delicious to those who hear it and feed on it, so Wordilicious is the delicious word, and the Investigators were those of Us present at the event. Venue was Petaling Jaya Gospel Hall. There was a lot of activities lined up for the day. No wonder the duration was set to be from 8:30am-4:30pm....'twas good though. We were provided with Breakfast & Lunch, so we didn't have to bother so much....Organization was really good; from my view, it was worth more than the RM20each person paid to sign up. So sorry, got no pictures yah!!!

There were 3 sessions packed with practical demonstrations (in a dramatic manner), exploring the book of Jonah. Everything seemed so real, and I thank God for the wonderful opportunity to witness the event.

One thing amazed me so much. The drama presentation. It was so wonderful. Ever seen one person act out all the characters in a play?? There was this vibrant lady introduced as Brenda Lim. A graduate in Mass Comm., and involved in the past 5months in teaching English to kids in Cambodia. When we were told that she would be the minister for the day, I thought in my mind "How on earth would a Mass Comm graduate & English teacher be the one to take the word???", but I was really thrilled at what happened. She not only took the place of about 13 Characters that made up the play about Jonah the Prophet, but she went on to give a clear exposition on the book of Jonah. It was so Awesome!!! There were a lot of questions thrown to her, and she gave very satisfactory explanations...So nice...

The message I got:
1) God is Sovereign, He does whatever He does with whomever He pleases. When God calls a man, He ensures that whatever happens, the man would do what He (God) wants.

2) Jonah, most times we want to run away from God's call for our lives. Pride is most times a reason for this longing to neglect God's plans.

3) Nineveh: As humans, we always want to do wrong. The repentance shown by the people of Nineveh didn't last long. God challenges us. The struggles don't end when you just repent, it starts then. There is no private sin.

4) God sees what you are going through, but He has better plans for you. He wants us to look beyond ourselves.

5) When you are God's Messenger, He'll look out for you; before you teach others, He'll teach you.

6) Very Important: You'll see moments of grace when you stop running from God. He wants us to care for those He cares about. There might come moments when the sacrifices will seem too much to bear, but God will see you through in grace. GOD'S MESSAGE MUST BE PROCLAIMED!!!

Seems very long??? It really thrust me to another level of faith in God and the longing to do what He wants me to. I decided to sacrifice all that I felt was making me reluctant to do certain things that God wants me to. I believe that by God's grace, I'm geared towards being what God wants me to be for Him.

The games later on were equally impressive, and I was opportuned to get the NIV Bible I have so longed for. It's actually more than what I expected, it's an NIV Study Bible...isn't that awesome? God sure answers prayers.

Went to Church pretty late coz WI ended at 4:30pm, so i cldn't get to KAOG until about 6:15pm. Used the train form PJ To KL Sentral, then to Kajang. Quite kool. Service was equally awesome. Watched a documentary on how Christians in Iran were being Martryed for Christ's Sake. The drive to live for God increases with every murder of a Christian or Pastor of the Churches in Iran.

Lord help me to live my life in such a way, that I can be ready to die for Your Cause.

"For me to live is Christ..., to die is gain" - Apostle Paul.

~ BLESSED SUNDAY~

2008-09-13T23:30:00.000+08:00

Woke up refreshed today...though after the stress of yesterday and the overnight get together I had to attend (Didn't talk about it in my blog, and I don't think i want to do that) Had to go to Church for KAOG Christmas drama (THE DREAM) rehearsal. Was kool. Did a little shopping for groceries and got back home a bit late.

Emm...what else??? My day was just Kool (though with my Internet connection down for the past 3days)..so sad...had to look out for where to check my mail. Luckily I did that in a friend's place.

Will be going to bed late (as usual)...lol...

FRIDAY...

2008-09-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

Friday was really a busy one for me. Pretty busy, but yet very exciting for me. Slept late on Thursday (as usual since this holiday) but had to wake up early enough coz I had driving lessons to attend at 8:00am. Morning lesson lasted for about 2hrs. It was a bit surprising to see that I wasn't terrified....even though I had been on the steering before, I had never tried driving on a road..lol.... Only did it with my premises back home in Nigeria. It was all kool anywayz...My teacher tried to make me feel a bit scared, but I didn't even bulge...lol...

Lots of meetings to attend...Help Squad, SA magazine editorial team e.t.c. Felt like I would faint, coz I still hadn't had enough sleep, and was s'posed to be at the International Concert at His Sanctuary of Glory Church, Kuala Lumpur. Thank Goodness I didn't faint.

About the Concert?? Well, I'll say it was okay, but not to my standard. A lot of things seemed to not be in place, not enough bands represented, and not so inspiring presentations.....But anywayz, it was fun for me coz I got to see my friends from other schools again. Took a lot of photos but have only added a few to this blog.

Got back home pretty late, at about 2:15am on Saturday....Have to wake up before 7am coz i've got to be out of school for a Bible Seminar organized by Fellowship of Evangelical Students (FES) Malaysia.

BLOGGING IS GETTING SO EXCITING!!!

2008-09-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

Hey people! I've got a new blog addy now. It's on Xanga.com. I'm so excited to be blogging with Xanga. Stumbled over Xanga in a quest for an interface with more exciting Features, and I think Xanga fits into it for now. Been on blogger(blogspot) for a while now, but haven't really been comfortable with the interface. Guess I'll have to learn to manage two blog addys, they might contain the same stuffs, but they'll definitely not have the same look. So if you want to see what my other blogsite looks like, you are free to go to www.xanga.com/winnieamini.

Now to today's happenings. Today started off quite well, didn't get to sleep last night until about 4:40am today. Had to set out for town at 10:00am, so I set my alarm for about 8:30am. Didn't wake up when it rang though coz i still felt very drowsy...finally got up at about 9:10am(so lazy of me...lol...)

School resumes in a week's time, so I've got to put things together and get ready for lectures again. Decided to do some shopping today(visited Mid-Valley Mega Mall for the umpteenth time in the last 3weeks). Felt very sleepy all the way to the mall. Had Brunch at Nandos- my favorite meal on their menu(1/4 Chicken with 2sidelines...for sidelines, I went for Mediterranean Rice and Peri Chips) with my usual flavor (extra hot peri-peri), all washed down nicely with a glass of Ice Lemon Tea. It was a sumptuous meal, and I must add that Nandos happens to be my favourite eating spot in M'sia. I love it so much and I'm sure those who have been there before can guess why....I'm African....Checked at a plaza in KL called 'Sungei Wang Plaza'. Got myself some nice Exec Shirts & some lovely skirts. I love them so much

Yeah! Now here's the very exciting part of my day...I finally handed over my position as the Vice President of the African Student Fellowship (ASF) in the University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus. Wow!!! I'm really grateful to God, for His Faithfulness and Grace towards me all through my tenure (2007/2008 Academic Session). It was a wonderful handover service, the message shared, made it a very wonderful one for me. Pastor James, from His Sanctuary of Glory Church Kuala Lumpur shared a message tagged 'Starting & Finishing Strong'. He centered on the life of Joseph in the Bible. Haven't put the pictures for this together, will have to upload them maybe when next I blog.

Now here comes the part of my day that almost gave me some kinda emo' problems. Had a little misunderstanding with a friend. I think it was partly my fault, but I never really expected it to result in so much of a problem....U know what happens when a friend feels She/He is not getting so much of the attention needed from you. Anywayz, I don't want to bore u with so much analysis of what happened. Right now as I write this, I think the problem is partly solved. Well, tomorrow will tell...I'll confirm if things are okay...

Special Prayer to God:

Lord, please help me to add meaning into people's lives. Let my friends see Your love extended through me. And may You constantly open their eyes to see how much I care about them. Let my life touch lives for You. AMEN!!!

Starting and Finishing STRONG...

2008-09-10T22:27:00.000+08:00

Today started off quite well, didn't get to sleep last night until about 4:40am today. Had to set out for town at 10:00am, so I set my alarm for about 8:30am. Didn't wake up when it rang though coz i still felt very drowsy...finally got up at about 9:10am(so lazy of me...lol...)

School resumes in a week's time, so I've got to put things together and get ready for lectures again. Decided to do some shopping today(visited Mid-Valley Mega Mall for the umpteenth time in last 3weeks). Felt very sleepy all the way to the mall... he he :) :). Had Brunch at Nandos- my favorite meal on their menu(1/4 Chicken with 2sidelines...for sidelines, I went for Mediterranean Rice and Peri Chips) with my usual flavor (extra hot peri-peri), all washed down nicely with a glass of Ice Lemon Tea. It was a sumptuous meal, and I must add that Nandos happens to be my favorite eating spot in M'sia. I love it so much and I'm sure those who have been there before can guess why....I'm African....

Checked at a plaza in KL called 'Sungei Wang Plaza'. Got myself some nice Exec Shirts & some lovely skirts. I love them so much :) :)

Yeah! Now here's the very exciting part of my day...I finally handed over my position as the Vice President of the African Student Fellowship (ASF) in the University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus. Wow!!! I'm really grateful to God, for His Faithfulness and Grace towards me all through my tenure (2007/2008 Academic Session). It was a wonderful handover service, the message shared, made it a very wonderful one for me. Pastor James, from His Sanctuary of Glory Church Kuala Lumpur shared a message tagged 'Starting & Finishing Strong'. He centered on the life of Joseph in the Bible. Haven't put the pictures for this together, will have to upload them maybe when next I blog.

Now here comes the part of my day that almost gave me some kinda emo' problems. Had a misunderstanding with a friend. I think it was partly my fault, but I never really expected it to result in so much of a problem....U know what happens when a friend feels She/He is not getting so much of the attention needed from you. Anywayz, I don't want to bore u with so much analysis of what happened. Right now as I write this, I think the problem is partly solved. Well, tomorrow will tell...I'll confirm if things are okay... :) :)

Special Prayer to God:

Lord, please help me to add meaning into people's lives. Let my friends see Your love extended through me. And may You constantly open their eyes to see how much I care about them. Let my life touch lives for You.

Been away for so long.

2008-09-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

Wow!!! Can't believe that it's more than a month i put something up here. Not that i've been too busy, but dunno, i just never felt in the mood to write. I've been doing a lot of blogging, but never really putting down stuffs...so lazy of me!!! Now, there's a lot to talk about, but i just do not know where to start right now.

Life has being a bit two-sided for me lately. Not so boring, but at the same time, not so interesting. Been waiting so eagerly for school to resume after so long a holiday. 4months is no joke, especially with life in this boring Semenyih(sorry to say aaahh)....aarrgghhh :) :).

Come to think of it, i think i need to do a recap on what i did during this long summer hols. Hmmm.....but that'll look like i'm going back to what i've done before, instead of updating...well, guess it doesn't really matter, it's just for memory purposes...lol...:) D) Let's c...i'll have to start out in my next post.

FEAR & ANXIETY

2008-07-31T23:05:00.001+08:00

Have You ever developed a kind of feverish feeling when you begin to think that things are not working out the way you expected them to, or have you ever been in a situation where you are trying to get at something but it never really comes, or even it does, it doesn't come as quickly as you expected it? The last 2weeks was such a period for me. I looked forward to getting something, I waited for so...so long, but the more I waited, the more it seemed to elude me. This kind of situation is often referred to by some as FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN.

I got so worried that I didn't know I had began to eat a lot!!! So funny, but yeah, it's very true...Before now, I lose appetite when I get worried, but this time around, it was different...he he :) I kept thinking, praying, trying to trust God, but at the same time I was getting a lot...lot confused coz i just couldn't stop thinking. Before I knew it, the scales shot up....I had gained about 4kg...out of nowhere...Phew!!! the food...yeah! the more I got worried, the more I tried to make myself feel okay...unconsciously doing this through snacking (a lot of Junks)!!!

When I realized I had gained a lot more weight, I decided to increase the number of times I work-out. This didn't really help much coz I was still down in the Valley.....thinking, pondering, worrying and feeling depressed.

Hmmm....you might be asking how did it end, or even has the worrying ended? Yeah! It did, and I thank God that it ended in the month of July. It was like a breakthrough for me when on the 30th of July, I received answers to my many questions. Like a flash of light, the answers came very early in the morning at about 7:47am. With a deep sigh of relief and with my heart leaping for Joy and my lips parting to scream the words "Thank You Lord!". It's really a testimony for me, coz this situation almost took my life. It was a matter of life and death...it involved choices.

The choices we make in life affect us a lot. And I've come to realize that what brings fear and anxiety most times is not what we cannot conquer, but it's the situations that we have the power to overcome, but find it difficult to make the CHOICES that will lead us to overcoming them.

NOTABLE QUOTES:

I have learned over the years that when one's mind is made up, this diminishes fear; knowing what must be done does away with fear. - ROSA PARKS.

Worry gives a small thing a big shadow. - SWEDISH PROVERB.

I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday and I love today. - WILLIAM ALLEN WHITE.

TOLERANCE - A necessary Virtue.

2008-07-11T17:07:00.000+08:00

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. So many events I witnessed lately have stirred up my thinking to a different level. Hmmm....I've really come to learn a lot about what it means to be tolerant.

Watz tolerance all about? Is it about accepting things that you feel comfortable with, or things that you do not feel comfortable with? Now, let's first see what the dictionary has to say about this.
TOLERANCE - a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward those whose opinions, practices, race, religion, nationality, etc., differ from one's own; freedom from bigotry.

I'll love to get more practical about this. How about walking into a public store, looking out to get a drink, you get a stare from everyone in there, because of the color of your skin, you're black, they are all white, brown skinned, or even red skinned. Then, one of them walks up to you, and spits a word to your face "Hey Negro, what the fuck d'u think u are doing here? U shouldn't be in here...or can't u see?" Then, the first impression you get is this: "Oh My God! Here comes a racist...." U feel like you should just thrust out ur right hand and plunge your fist into his face... :) :D, but all u do is stare right into his face and say "I'm sorry man, I never really thought that I shouldn't be in here....All I came here for is a can of Coke. Then he gives you a disgusting look and strolls straight away.

Does that sound bad enough? No, I don't think it does....Then here comes another.....U get to the bus stop, waiting to get a cab. U feel so tired, after a long day. There's a queue, then u stand right in the queue. The cabs come in their numbers, in a queue too, U wait until it gets to ur turn to get into one of the cabs. Here comes the cab you are to get into, u walk right to him, but before you even think of opening the door, he puts up his right hand in a gesture "NO!", then he picks up the next person on the queue(behind you) and drives on,leaving u speechless.... Luckily, u get a chance to get away with the next cab on the queue, and the thought of what happened never gets out of your mind.

Now does this sound bad enough? Hmmmmm.....U wake up on a very beautiful Sunday morning, get dressed to go to Church. As u are about to walk into the Church auditorium, a car speeds past u, and a man who seems to be as old as ur own grandfather sticks his head full of gray hairs out of the window and screams out his lungs "Fuck u Nigger!!!". Now u feel like u've had enough of it...U feel depressed even during Church service. Nothing really seems to matter anymore, except that u feel so much hate for the people around u who obviously have a different skin color from yours.

Now this is where tolerance comes in. These people have just acted in a very unfair manner to you. U feel like your world hates u because of the color of your skin, u feel they really do not know what u are worth....u wonder why u have to bear the shame and humiliation that resulted from the world wars and slavery that existed decades upon decades before u were even born....Hmmmm, U just feel like u should never really have anything to do with the likes of them. Here's where tolerance is needed most.

When U've been hurt because of other people's beliefs, religion, reaction to u e.t.c, u need tolerance to pull through. Without tolerance, it becomes so..so easy to hate a person...or even a group of people. You could just black-list them as a group u never want to associate with. It takes tolerance to look beyond a person's weakness, judgemental attitude or even humiliation u get from the person. Tolerance opens the way for love and friendliness. It even causes the one who has hurt you to begin to realize his/her faults. For those who are Christians, i guess the bible verse that says "Hatred stirs up strifes, but love covers a multitude of sins (Prov 10:12)" might ring a bell. If you show the person that no matter how they view you, u can still love them, then they'll see their wrongs, and begin to love you in return.

So, the next time you find yourself being humiliated because of the color of your skin, or because of who u are, or the social class you belong to, be still, don't get furious, don't react, just be still and love them in return. Show them that there's a lot to be done in the world than just being a racist or full of hate for a person.

MAKING CHOICES!!!

2008-07-11T03:04:00.000+08:00

So many times, i find it difficult believing that I could do a lot of incredibly wrong things. The struggle to always be right appears to be as difficult as the word "struggle". Recently, i got to realize that there were areas of my life that needed to be looked into. Sometimes we just try to concentrate on our vertical relationships(God and ourselves), and forget about the horizontal one(others and ourselves) which in turn matters a lot. Areas like friendships seem not to matter so much until we see ourselves drifting so far...far away from who we really are. Did i hear someone say "Datz very true"?

Now to the main topic, what am i really talking about??? Ummmm.....How d'u feel when u find out that a decision u have just made is going to be very detrimental to you? It's not actually that u couldn't have thought of something better, but u just have to make the decision because u want to please the next person. Many will say "Every situation you find yourself in life is a product of the choices u make", Aye.....I concur to that, but one thing I've come to discover is that it's really difficult to make the right choices if u are surrounded by circumstances and a lot of people gearing you up to make the wrong choice.

Hmmm....Talking about choices, I really find out that I'm speechless at this point. Recently, I was faced with a situation that needed a YES or NO answer. My YES would mean a lot, and also would my NO. Both answers had a side effect i.e. I would definitely not be happy, either ways. Now, u can imagine what it would be like for me, a Dilemma i would call it. And guess what I did?...wonder if ur guess would be close to what it actually is. I gave a NO answer, and it brought me through a lot of trouble...at which point I had to give an affirmative. This didn't even help, it was a worse case.

Well......, I really can't say much here(coz certain issues should be kept personal)...lol....., but i must admit that I've still not recovered from the effect of my choice on this. I'm praying earnestly to God, and crying deep down in my heart, hoping that HE comes to my rescue, and save me from this terrible situation.

One word, if u find urself in a situation where u are forced to make a choice between two things, and there are side effects both ways, it's better to follow ur heart. If u feel u shouldn't give an answer, then i bet u, u just might be right to abstain. There's no point making a decision when u know that there are side effects both ways....especially when it is difficult to weigh the side effects. One very important and easy way to get out of this kind of situation is to PRAY!!!

GETTING ON.

2008-03-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

This week started quickly, and also seems to be ending so quickly. Went to bed on Sunday, wondering what would become of me and my sprained knee throughout the week... Well, I thank God that so far, it hasn't been as bad as I expected. It hurt badly on Monday anywayz, I had to hurry home to rest my legs coz i felt like I'd just drop before i get to my room...But by God's grace, I didn't. It hurt so much coz I did a lot of moving around and climbing of staircases. Had lectures virtually the whole day, so you can imagine what that felt like.....aaaarrrrggghhh!!!! It's been good anywayz, I feel a little better now compared to how I felt 2days ago. :)

Ugh Yeah! There's one thing i'm beginning to ponder about...Why does the year seem to be flying past....Yeah! I know it's a leap year, but I just can't figure out why it seems like the year will be ending soon, and i almost feel like i've achieved practically nothing throughout this first quarter of the year. Well..., I've got to gear up and get on....There's much to be done, and ain't no time to leave any stone unturned. Well..., like is a common saying in my dialect, "God dey sha!!!" I put all my trust in HIM and get on with life, coz HE is the driver of my car, I am but a steering wheel.....:)

WISDOM FOR THE WISE.

2008-03-15T14:22:00.000+08:00

WISDOM FOR THE WISE …

Get Knowledge …but don’t depend on your Knowledge.

Seek to be Wise…but don’t rely on your Wisdom.

Work Hard…but don’t trust in your Hard work.

Work Smart…but don’t stake everything on your efficiency.

Make Plans…but don’t Hope in your Plans.

Save Money…but don’t trust in your Savings.

Value People…but don’t depend on People.

Use Things and Love People. Don’t Use People and Love Things.

It’s better to deserve honours and not have them, than to have them and not deserve them.

The wise are those people who look at others with the same generosity they offer themselves, and look at themselves with the same critical eyes they have for others.

We are saved by God’s mercy, not by our merit; by Christ’s dying, not by our doing; by trusting, not by trying.

MART DE HANN

UNITY IN DIVERSITY.

2008-03-15T13:59:00.000+08:00

“That all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in Us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that You gave me, that they may be one as We are one: I in them and You in Me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved Me”. (John 17:21-23 NIV).

The thought of how different people, of different races, speaking different languages and having different cultural or ethnical values can come together to be one seems almost impossible. A nation most often consists of people who share common values, beliefs and descent. However, this is what God always intended for us, right from the beginning (the creation of the world): that all men would live together in peace, unity and love.

How then can this come to pass? It is God’s will that the world should speak the same language and be in one accord. It still is His will that we speak different languages but also live in one accord. That all tribes and nations should come together to form one nation.., God’s nation.

Our diversity must not be seen as a barrier to our becoming one nation as God intends for us to be. Rather, it should bring us together, knowing that each tribe or nation has a lot to learn from the other. We should learn to understand and embrace the cultures of others, knowing that we all form one nation (God’s nation).

“Wherever God has a child, I have a brother or sister” (W. Carl Ketcherside).

Friday Evening.

2008-03-15T12:14:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning feeling like i had some kinda hangover from last night. An incident that occured Yesterday evening got me doing a lot of thinking and self-analysis. Well..., this isn't just about me, it's about how we live life, react to issues or miscommunication, and how we respond when we feel hurt by someone's words. I guess someone out there who has been through this kind of situation before might just share similar views about this.

Well..., it wasn't something that should result in so much trouble, but to my surprise, it did. I've got two friends, who are really very close to me. I share experiences, struggles, and fears with each of them and sometimes seek their opinion to certain issues. Well, one of them seems to be closer to me (at least from the view of other people) based on the fact that we have some administrative roles to perform together. But unfortunately for me they seem to be each other's rival almost all the time.

Now, i'll just go straight to the point...About yesterday's issue. I got an administrative information that was claimed as a decision taken by one of them. I decided to find out about the information from the one i heard made the suggestion. I did this with a clear mind, free of sentiments, but to my utmost surprise, he took it with a pinch of salt. He felt he was being accused of a decision that was not taken by him, and took it upon himself to figure out who said it and why. Well, i never expected this coz i asked the question from a clear mind and all i needed was a Yes or No answer.

To cut a long story short, it culminated in a verbal tussle....kinda conflict between these two friends of mine, leaving me in between the fight...To one party, i was seen as not being supportive, to the other, i was seen as not giving my trust. In the event of ironing out rumpled surfaces, i got to realise that a lot was involved, and i now feel there is something else which the both of them are not telling me. Well, they are both guys, people who i take as brothers to me, but here i was, feeling like i had set a house ablaze. At the end of Yesterday, i made up my mind to be less expressive and keep back certain things to myself. I know this might not sound right, but from the way i feel about issues right now, i think it'll be best to take that stance.

Well, i'm open to suggestions from anyone and everyone....If you think this is not a right option, you just tell me what u feel about the whole scenario. I mean having two friends who seem to be rivals to each other.

This week....

2008-03-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

Wow! I wonder why blogging now seems like a weekly or once in a while stuff for me...Ought to keep up to date as often as possible. Lots of excuses why i shouldn't be blogging keep coming....Most especially the thought of all the skool work i've got to do.

Hmmm! Yeah! Thank God it's weekend again...Always look forward to it...he he :) Seriously, for this week, i couldn't wait. Was almost getting out of my mind....This week really got me feeling like a real nerd. Lectures!, lectures!!, lectures!!!, Courseworks, Lots of programming stuffs to do and most especially, having to go through 5691 lines of code for our group project on arkanoid game stuff....It seemed really challenging to sit for hours (about 3hrs) on Monday, studying codes and getting explanations to what their functions are in the game we are designing...it's not that it's something new anywayz, just that it wasn't what i bargained for this week....Well, Thank Goodness, we finally went through it all.

Yeah! About Haskell, I must say i'm beginning to develop some kinda love for it....This is a sign that things will go well...I feel excited about that.

Uh Oh! Finally, for Friday's experience, I guess i'll need a whole page....i mean fresh page to document what it felt like...ummm....that should come in my next post. :)

2008-03-07T01:18:00.000+08:00

Wohoooo!!! Wow! Can't believe it's about 2months i blogged....arghhh been so busy with this skool stuffs. Nerding almost all day long...Lectures to books has just been the routine, except for a few pull-outs from the books. Sometimes, one has got to ignore dem books...he he:)

Ermmm...so watz on the list he he :) Yeah! i need some kinda explanation on the relevance of HASKELL PROGRAMMING to Computer Science...Men! Haskell sucks...Anywayz, i must confess i enjoy it sometimes, it has a kinda drilling power...ha ha ha!!! Wish i could come across anyone who's a Genius when it comes to Haskell....I'll give you a treat if you could just put me through... :)

There's a lot going on here in Malaysia, but none of the students here in Nottingham University seem to care...Datz all coz we're so engrossed in the world of academia...-:)

Well..., if anyone could be of help, your help will be very much appreciated....

Today's encounter....

2008-01-14T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hey:)

For anyone who followed my expressions some days ago, this might seem familiar.... Today was really wonderful.... U know what...? I finally made it thru the Algorithmic Problem Solving...Thanks to God Almighty....:) I almost thought I wouldn't....he he...:) But God was merciful...and He still is.

Today's exams was really good.....Unlike i expected...U know God works in mysterious ways....As at this morning, i felt very scared...kinda...well it was a mixed feeling...Wasn't so sure of what i could write....Datz which questions i could solve confidently....

Well, as God would have it, as usual, I put all in His hands and......guess u can tell the outcome if u are a true believer P:)...God never fails.... It turned out well.....I can't contain myself....my heart is filled with Joy....Actually, Algorithmic Problem wasn't worth my tears...PRAISE GOD!!! It pays to trust God...

Feeling Miserable...

2008-01-12T01:40:00.000+08:00

Have u ever felt like your whole day was a waste? I felt the same way today...oh no yesterday coz it's about 1:30am out here right now.
I tried so hard to study for an exam I have to write on Monday, but all my efforts seemed to be wasteful...Cud only get to cover 3 Chapters of my lecture notes...So horrible!!!

So what am I to do with this Algorithmic Problem Solving? Whoever came up with the course should have thought better....

Well, though i couldn't do much today...ahhh Yesterday, but I believe the rest has to be done b4 Monday....Come what may... I just have to work hard and put myself in the mood for it.
Can't wait to be a graduate...lol..:)

Dreaming...

2008-01-10T22:07:00.000+08:00

I have a dream...,
That one day, this world will be a better place.
That Beggers will become Princes, and Maids will become Queens.
That one day, poverty will vanish completely from this earth. That the inhabitants of the earth, both great and small, bold and cowardly, rich or poor, will have enough to eat and drink.
That one day,parents will get to treat Children with care, Husbands their Wives with love, Wives their Husbands with respect.
That one day, Babies will begin to talk, say where it hurts most, rather than cry when no one seems to understand.
That one day all humans, whether black or white, agile or fragile, strong or weak, will begin to see each other as equals.
That when the world comes to an end,all its beauty and attractive properties will go with it, and all will know, that this world definitely wouldn't last forever.